The 53-year-old presenter has daughter Darcey, 15, and son Billy, 11, with Derek, who was hospitalised for a year as he battled Covid.
Speaking on Thursday’s episode of This Morning, Kate revealed her shock as her eldest child asked her ‘out of the blue’ if she was planning to take her own life.
She recalled: ‘They [their kids] were at times wondering if I was going to be OK, was I going to be able to keep going. Darcey at one point actually said, “Mum – are you going to kill yourself?” Out of the blue.’
Shocking: Kate Garraway ‘s daughter asked her if she was going to ‘kill herself’ amid her husband Derek Draper’s coronavirus battle
Kate continued: ‘The thing is, that sounds horrific, obviously. But if you know Darcey, she’s really blunt. She will always go to the most awful thing you can imagine and work her way back.
‘She just came out with the sentence, and I said, “Oh my God, no. Why would you think that?” She said, “I wasn’t, but I just thought I better check.”‘
Kate revealed she did her best to put her daughter at ease, responding: ‘If anything it’s the absolute opposite. I can’t imagine what would be more opposite. I’m so scared you thought of that.’
‘And she was like, “Don’t make a big thing of it.” It showed at the very least she wanted affirmation. And also made me realise she wasn’t just worried about her dad, but thinking of me and her brother.’
Heartbreaking: Kate recalled her shock as her eldest child Darcey (pictured) asked her ‘out of the blue’ if she planning to take her own life
Family: Kate shares daughter Darcey, 15, and son Billy, 11, with Derek (pictured in 2019) who was hospitalised for a year as he battled Covid
Kate admitted her kids have coped ‘amazingly’ with the uncertainty of not knowing whether their father would survive his battle with coronavirus and the after-effects, and caring for her.
She said: ‘I don’t think I realised how much they were taking care of me quite a lot along the way. The first moment was they wanted to watch Father Brown and I thought, “This is a very odd thing for a teenager to be choosing to watch”.
‘But I realised they knew I loved it, and they wanted to do things for me.’
Kate recalled: ‘They [their kids] were at times wondering if I was going to be OK, was I going to be able to keep going. Darcey at one point actually said, “Mum – are you going to kill yourself?”‘
It has been confirmed that Derek is Britain’s longest surviving Covid hospital patient after he was first admitted with breathing difficulties on March 30 last year.
He was put on a ventilator and spent months in a form of coma before uttering his first word – ‘pain’ – in October last year.
The father-of-two’s body has been ‘universally affected’ by the condition, which means that it targeted his lungs, heart, kidneys, liver and pancreas.
Lobbyist Derek spent more than a year in intensive care but returned to the couple’s home in north London on April 7 and burst into tears when he saw his kids.
Soothing: Kate revealed she did her best to put her daughter at ease, responding, ‘If anything it’s the absolute opposite. I can’t imagine what would be more opposite’
While Derek is able to say ‘some words’, he cannot have a conversation with people, but he is has been able to remember ‘lots of little details’ and react to things.
Kate explained: ‘Now, there are things he does which are miraculous. He remembers extraordinary things. He is saying some words. But it’s definitely not a conversation, and he’s physically very changed. Everything has to be done for him. So, we have a very different life.’
When asked how much of Derek she thinks she is ‘going to get back’, she replied: ‘I don’t know.
Amazing: Kate admitted her kids have coped ‘amazingly’ with the uncertainty of not knowing whether their father would survive his battle with coronavirus and the after-effects
Praise: Kate spoke about the little ways her children have looked out for her, admitting ‘I don’t think I realised how much they were taking care of me quite a lot along the way’
‘One of the great tragedies and ironies is Derek has always been about his brain and his extraordinary way of looking at the world.
‘What is there is he is still him. He remembers lots of little details, he reacts to things the kids do in the way he would’ve done before.
‘Not exactly the same way, obviously. He’s not telling them off, because he can’t. He’s smiling and laughing at things.’
Progress: Kate revealed while Derek is able to say ‘some words’, he cannot have a conversation with people, but he is has been able to remember ‘lots of little details’ and react to things
Candid: Kate admitted she feared at one point that Derek may never remember her and their kids ‘which is rather selfish of me actually’
Kate admitted she feared at one point that Derek may never remember her and their kids.
She added: ‘For me, I just dreaded he wouldn’t remember us, which is rather selfish of me actually. Because I don’t know whether he would’ve been in a better or worse position.
‘At one point we thought we might be caring for him at home and we’d be strangers. And that’s terrifying for him, and strange for us.
‘But he definitely knows us, and he definitely is pleased to be home, and we’re so glad to have him home.’
Praise: Susanna Reid (left) praised Kate for her ‘beautiful’ book about her husband’s Covid battle, saying she’d ‘done Derek proud’ on Thursday’s Good Morning Britain
Kate appeared on the show to promote her new book, The Power of Hope, a raw and emotional memoir detailing the devastating impact Covid has had on Kate’s family.
Earlier in the day, Kate was praised for her ‘beautiful’ memoir by her GMB co-host Susanna Reid, who said she’d ‘done Derek proud’.
Discussing the book with Susanna and Ben Shephard, Kate revealed her relief she had finally finished, joking there were ‘plenty of pictures’ for Ben to enjoy, while Susanna would enjoy the words.
The couple had hoped they could spend proper time together as a family and be as safe as possible during the pandemic (pictured in 2019)
Susanna wasted no time getting stuck in, however, revealing: ‘I managed to have a speed read of it this morning. Beautiful book. I love it. Absolutely love it. You’ve done Derek proud.’
The emotional tome details the very beginning of Derek’s illness in March 2020 when the couple initially thought he had sinusitis.
Out now: Kate’s new book, The Power of Hope is a raw and emotional memoir detailing the impact Covid has had on Kate’s family
His condition deteriorated, prompting Kate to call Dr Hilary Jones who urged her to phone an ambulance immediately.
In The Power Of Hope, she pays tribute to ‘the brilliant team of doctors and specialists’ who’ve looked after him and how what they’ve learnt has helped the treatment of others.
The mother-of-two describes how the toughest experience of her life began in March last year when Derek was taken to hospital with very low oxygen levels.
As he was lifted into an ambulance, Kate said he told her: ‘This is not the last time you will see me. It isn’t.’ But she admits ‘he would never have said that if at least a small part of him hadn’t been wondering if it was.’
During the rollercoaster next few days, Kate truly feared her political lobbyist-turned-psychotherapist husband was going to die. In one phone call, he told her: ‘I want you at the funeral.’
‘His messages became more and more desperate. They were heart-breaking to read’, the journalist recalled.
Earlier this month, Kate said on Good Morning Britain: ‘It has been wonderful having Derek at home. There have been lots of little positives – moments of recognition and reaction.’
Explaining why she had written the book, the Smooth Radio presenter said: ‘I’m painfully aware that Derek would have wanted to tell his own story if he could – and one day he still may.
‘I have tried to do him – and all those who love him – justice, and his love and life are present in every line.
‘On an emotional level, I hope readers will also draw something from how we, his family, have struggled to cope.’
Shocking: It has been confirmed that Derek is Britain’s longest surviving Covid hospital patient after he was first admitted with breathing difficulties on March 30 last year